Tonight I am getting that feeling. That overwhelming build up of emotions inside. My eyes brimming with tears. Missing my love so much. That tightening of my chest, because I feel my heart snap again from the pain.
"I stood still, vision blurring, and in that moment, I heard my heart break. It was a small, clean sound, like the snapping of a flower’s stem." — Diana Gabaldon
I miss his laugh so much. I miss all the silly things I would do, just to make him laugh. To see those eyes light up with love for me, is better than watching the most gorgeous sunrise or sunset I could ever imagine. I loved it when he would just look at me, and then he would take a deep breath, and I would realize I had stopped breathing too, and we would both just breath in...and no words had to be said, because it was just so right.
And now my tears have fallen, and I will go to sleep, on my tear stained pillow with hopes of dreaming of his eyes looking into mine.