1.14.2012

He lives on.


Some days, I get messages from Frankie’s old friends telling me how much he meant to them.  They are always special encounters or stories that I often know from Frankie telling me, and they often just confirm what I already know.  They mostly just tell me about Frankie’s heart, and his love for them and all those around them and how he lives on in them and will always be a reminder to them to be a better person.  Rarely do I cry when I read theses messages, but Chiabella was lucky.  She knew a side of Frankie that not everyone got to hear or know of.  She knew of his sruggles.  She knew that his soul was magic, and special, and unrepeatable. Her message was full of caring and her own personal loss and grief.  It was full of heart.  I am glad Frankie knew you in his life Chiabella.

Thank you for these lyrics, and I cannot wait to hear the song! 

I always thought
that angels were up in heaven
I thought they were sent down to us
But I was wrong
And now I know
You’re walking the earth with me
Amongst the angels
Cuz they are the ones in need
You were saving lives on earth
Now you’re saving souls in heaven
I know you’re more than a memory
Cuz you live on in me

They lowered a flag
To honor you
But I’ll raise it every day
To remember
Cuz we're the ones who need you
You were saving lives on earth
Now you’re saving souls in heaven
I know you’re more than a memory
Cuz you live on in me

I know you’re strolling through oak groves
smelling the ocean in the breeze
With the stars in your eyes
And the stripes on your sleeves
I know you’re more than a memory

You were saving lives on earth
Now you’re saving souls in heaven
I know you’re more than a memory
Because you live on in me
You were saving lives on earth
Now you’re saving souls in heaven

1.03.2012

Death is not the end of love

"I crawl my way back in your head
To hear you speak and dream again
To touch your lips from deep within
A bit like love and heroin
Across the grave invite the bands
Carry well when the world ends
Across you lay, I lose you when you're in my arms
Just like the wind

It's not over, over, over.....It's not over, over, over" - Angels & Airwaves - Crawl Lyrics

12.19.2011

The Lonely

I hate the holidays. 
I'm trying so hard, and I don't understand this.  I miss Frankie, I miss our life.  I miss feeling like I belong to something absolutely incredible here on earth, and like I have to wait to be complete again until I die.
I am lonely.  I know everyone will say, but you are never alone...he is always there.  I know that, but sometimes missing him just takes over, and I cannot shake that painful feeling.




12.18.2011

Missing U



Sunday nights.  There is something that makes this night of the week unbearable.  It is a culmination of all the other nights of the week added up without him.  It was one of our favorite nights of the week, where after church we would usually pack a lunch and take a stroll down to Lanikai beach, and read our favorite books, or just sit and look out at our favorite place together.



We would go home, and usually head outside to barbecue a delicious dinner and play phase 10.  We would just laugh and talk and stare at the stars after eating.  Sometimes we would take a dip in the pool.  And then we would wind up the night relaxed on the couch or cuddled up in bed ready for another week to start. 

I miss our Sundays.  I miss every day...but Sundays were always just ours.

11.15.2011

Links, links and more links to Frankie's Silver Star Ceremony!

The legacy of heroes is the memory of a great name and the inheritance of a great example.   ~Benjamin Disraeli

Watch:

On September 23, 2011 Frankie received the Silver Star.  This medal was well deserved, and I am so proud of him receiving it!  Words really cannot accurately describe that day.  It was beautifully done, and everything went so smoothly, which I have the amazing Civil Engineer Corps Headquarters in D.C. to thank for it going off without a hitch.  Admiral Mullen, former Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, presented the award to Frankie.  Him and his wife Debbie have been an amazing support system to me, and I have been fortunate to become rather close to them.  Frankie has made some amazing things happen, and meeting them was one of them. The ties I have made with people since Frankie's death has been incredible.  Somehow he still manages to bring amazing people together and I know that these meetings have not happened by circumstance.  Frankie somehow managed to bring all of our paths together and I am continually proud to call him my husband, my soul-mate, my best friend, and the best person that I have ever met.

A nice news article:

Full video of the presentation: 

Part I: 


Part II:



This was a day to never forget, and I am just so proud of Frankie.