Warning!!! This post has some disturbing photos! :)
So, I made it through into the new year. Past my second year of holidays. It is hard to say it is 2011. It is tough knowing that Frankie missed all of 2010 and most of 2009. It is even more difficult going to family holiday functions alone and having them afraid to mention Frankie, and looking through family albums and seeing my beautiful sisters all having the lives I somewhat imagined. I am over-joyed for them, but it is tough. All of it. I know Frankie's love has gotten me this far. But, I have realized that one of the many reasons he chose me, is because he knows how strong I am. How even though life and things may be tough....I AM TOUGHER!! He knows how strong my commitment is to him and I know how much he cannot wait to see me again.
He knows that even though this course on the the rest of my race in life is going to sometimes be like trudging through thick mud with giant blisters on my heels.........I will not quit!!
I am tougher than that.
The pain of missing him will not stop me. I will not look back to see how difficult the path has been. I will continue to look forward. I will finish the race, embrace the pain, the joy, our love, and I hope to be smiling the whole way, because I know what my reward will be:
Happy New Year everyone! Let's make it a good one! We can do it!
Let's make our loves proud!